5 more things I like about me.
I'm rational, I'm punctual, I take all sides into consideration, I am well liked by most people, I give of myself without expectations.
5 things good about me:
I'm intelligent, I Love my family, I am responsible, I take credit for my mistakes and my achievements, I learn.
I don't know what to do to help people anymore. I just want to help myself, and I'm afraid to help others because I tend to overhelp, or take control. I want to detach, but then people go and hang themselves, and all I want to do is stop it from happening again. I've been in her shoes, and I didn't do it. What made her so sure life wasn't worth it? I just want to help her. Go back and stop her. Her poor mother. Poor JR. Poor everyone left behind. Her obituary was in the paper today. It said she "passed away." Passed away!? she fucking hung herself! cleaned her room and checked out. Why didn't we see it? why didn't I see it. I've been there, and I ignored the facts. But I know it isn't my fault, because she didn;t want us to see, and she didn't want help. She just wanted to be normal, and it got too hard, too painful for her. I didn't even know her, and I just want to save her. I want to save them all because they are just kids! they haven't even lived yet, and they're dying. Do they go to hell? does God shun them, or is god filling up a bus because so many people are fucking dying these days. Stop picking on us. Go to a different county.
Ok, done now.
5 good things about me:
I'm honest, I have good people skills, I can admit when I'm wrong, I try to put others before me, I'm smart.
ok, not that anyone ever checks mindsay anymore, but I figured I would blog anyway. I've been writing lately. it's kind of nice to be able to. mleh for writers block! I would post some, but i'm in class and it wouldn't be good if someone read it.
have a good life all,
shell
so that last entry was a little on the emo, pittypot, poor me side. But, I am happy to say I am better. I found out a lot about the piece of shit I have been dating. He cheated on me, he lied about it, then he wanted to be my friend, then he lied some more, then he got her wasted and fucked her again. SO! I told her that he was a liar, that he had a gf, and that he was single now because of her. She hates him, I hate him, Everyone hates him!!! yay!!!
shell
Have you ever felt like your entire world was coming down around you, and there was nothing you could do to stop it. Like you invested everything you had, just to have the carpet pulled out from underneath you? Or that you put trust in a person, and they betrayed you? Or that nothing seems right, and everything you want to happen in life wont?
I will never understand why things happened the way they did. I didn't know that you could actually throw up from hurting so bad. I hope it was worth it. I just want to curl up and never have to feel anything again.
well hello, long time no blog. I guess I should update once in a while. I've come to notice that in comparison to how many people used to blog on a daily basis, very few people are still active on a daily basis in the little group of people I know on Mindsay. There are only about 2-3 people who blog daily, and about 5 who blog about once a week or so, and the rest just kinda blog once in a while.
oh well, I guess Myspace really has taken over.
Ok, so, I know I haven't posted as often as I should, and I've kind of grown away from the internet BUT! I had to share this with you guys. I went to one of the best concerts ever!! Bullets and Octane headlined, Valient Thor and Damone were supporting, and a local band called Tribute was playing. I got to hang out with all of them except Tribute!!! It was so great!!!! Gene and James from Bullets were so hott and really nice. Damone and Valient Thor were all stoned and drunk before the concert, and funny as heck to watch. We got so many great pictures! and Gene did the whole concert shirtless.....omg! all the tattoos! all over his chest, back, and arms....I loved it.
I've also developed an obsession for tattoos, and if everything goes well, will be getting a piece done when I'm 18 
can't wait......I love my life so much!
shell
ok, so I haven't done any updating in like forever. I guess I should. so yeah...ummm...I got my license...I wasn't sure if I have told you or not. blah blah blah...ok, bored now. sorry.....I've been really spazzy lately...mleh.
shell
wow, I haven't blogged in a while. Sorry.
ok, updating. My phoneline at home has died, as a result, I cannot access internet, and am resigned to the 55 minute period of my computer class to check email, update blogs, and do the computer assignment, so as you can imagine, I can only get so much done.
I turned 16! it's really very exciting, and I love being 16, it makes me very very very happy I get my license in about a week too 
life is good.
I am saving my money for a new computer, I have a car ('79 mercedes, deisel (bleh)) it's nice.
I have a bf, he's cute, and he is a good person. I like him a lot....only a few kinks in the relationship...oh well, life will go on, right? lol, anyway, class over, tayl,
shell
wow, for some crazy reason, "When I'm Gone" by Eminem makes me cry....it's crazy...I never cry over songs...it really surprised me....maybe I'm turning into my father (he cries over everything! He cried over My Dog Skip, the movie!)
shell
well, we finally got a real teacher for computers. starting at the 2nd semester, but we can still learn something interesting...only bad thing, she's gonna review everything! ugh...I hate taking things slow for those who come into an advanced class without knowing the prerequisite stuff....oh well...it should still be fun.
yay! for learning!
shell
ok, I officially finished my english final. it wasn't as hard as I thought it would be. It was a previous AP exam, and I think I did ok on it. I did my outlines, and I was concise and to the point.
in other news...ummm...I don't have any...so yeah, that's all for now.
How is everyone out there?
shell
ok, so I can't get to the avenged concert in february, but I will have a car and a license by march, which means I can go to the taste of chaos concert in Sac. and warped tour, and any other cool concerts, but it all has to be after march 1 (day I get my license).
shell
Hmmm....ok, well....there isn't much going on on this side of the computer screen....how about the rest of you?
shell
just got back from vacation. it sucked more than I care to tell. I missed all of you. talk to you later.
shell
well, I am officially looking the stupidest ever. I am in black pants that are a couple sizes too big, a white button up shirt with enough starch in it to choke a horse, my hair is in a pony tail, with my bangs kind of slicked back, and I am wearing a bow tie. I hate my boss....so much right now....and I have to babysit 54 children for like 8 hours.
