I even think it's kinda cute the way, you poison my coffee, just a little each day......weird al

ok, i'm sitting here, doing nothing. listening to Evanescance (of course) thinking about everyone i have hurt. realizing i have a lot to apologize for. i wish i could just say it "i'm sorry __________ for everything i have ever done to you to cause you pain. you gave me more than i could ever hope for in a friend, and i am sorry if i have ever dissapointed you."  wow, if i could say that to everyone, life would be great, but most of the time, they would just give me a half-hearted smile, and say, "hey, it's no big deal,  forgive and forget, right?" ugh, why can't they just tell me i fucked up.