I even think it's kinda cute the way, you poison my coffee, just a little each day......weird al

I don't know what to write about...but I feel really off today...and I wanted to write about it. I'm fighting with tim a lot these days...and I don't know why. It seems everything he does is wrong...his tone of voice can set me off....and it fucks up the rest of my day. I am merciless when it comes to forgiving him, and I don't know why...I feel resentful and alone, and ashamed because he's a great guy, and I just want to go back to being the person I was before Ben fucked me over so fucking bad...I want to treat him well, and take care of him, and us, and everything will be ok again...and I don't want to tell him that because I know it would hurt him...Fuck!