5 things good about me:
I'm intelligent, I Love my family, I am responsible, I take credit for my mistakes and my achievements, I learn.
I don't know what to do to help people anymore. I just want to help myself, and I'm afraid to help others because I tend to overhelp, or take control. I want to detach, but then people go and hang themselves, and all I want to do is stop it from happening again. I've been in her shoes, and I didn't do it. What made her so sure life wasn't worth it? I just want to help her. Go back and stop her. Her poor mother. Poor JR. Poor everyone left behind. Her obituary was in the paper today. It said she "passed away." Passed away!? she fucking hung herself! cleaned her room and checked out. Why didn't we see it? why didn't I see it. I've been there, and I ignored the facts. But I know it isn't my fault, because she didn;t want us to see, and she didn't want help. She just wanted to be normal, and it got too hard, too painful for her. I didn't even know her, and I just want to save her. I want to save them all because they are just kids! they haven't even lived yet, and they're dying. Do they go to hell? does God shun them, or is god filling up a bus because so many people are fucking dying these days. Stop picking on us. Go to a different county.
Ok, done now.
