I even think it's kinda cute the way, you poison my coffee, just a little each day......weird al

I dont know where Im at anymore. I thought I was okay, that i was cured, and fine, and its all wrong. the burns still hurt as i type, and all i can think about it adding more scars. more pain, more hurt, anything to remember who i am. and this isnt who i am, i am not this person either, but its the only thing i know. im so lost, and i still dont have anyone who gets it. anyone to talk to, to vent at, to just be with me because they care. i dont know what to do anymore. i dont want this, i dont want to hurt, but i dont want to be a shell. i hate this. i hate me for being so weak, for giving into bullshit. please, i just need someone. fuck.